Everywhere! Crawling, crawling, crawling up my leg, my arms, my finger tips, in Puma's food bowl, on my panties, in the sink, on the tv, on my desk, at work.

I am being attacked by ants.

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I really, truly, want to learn Spanish. I mean, really learn. I don't want to just know how to say "la cucaracha," or "hola," or "s�."

I want to be able to form real sentences and carry on a simple conversation.

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He said, "Is that ok with you?"

I said, "I guess."

But really, I thought, "No, it is not ok. I want more than that. I want it all. I deserve it all. Don't just feed me little spoonfuls. I want heaving spoonfuls one after another, almost nonstop. Shove it up my ass, pour it down my throat if you must. I'll wallow in it, dance in it, devour it all."

He reminds me of that second ex in so many ways than one....yeah the 4.5 yr one, except the part where he kept saying, "I'm too small for you, aren't I? You think I'm too small." It never bothered me until he kept reminding me and then one day I ended up believing it was too small and I craved for a bigger one...just to see what it'd be like. But this one, this one is perfect....almost too perfect. When you're in love, it doesn't matter. Remember that. Be happy with what mother nature gave you.