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I need a new format. I'm getting bored with this one. 11 weeks baby. 11 weeks. Around then, I should have a whole new look & style.

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Friday: Met my brother's new gfriend of one month. She's already staying with him at his place. Dang. That's fast. Also, she seems a bit on the ditsy side, although really nice and anxious to get on my good side, which is cool by me.

But man, compared to his last gfriend, she looks kinda on the average end and certainly not as classy. I think he's going downhill. I suppose it's not a surprise when your last gfriend was some former Miss Teen USA 2nd Runner up and Miss Orange County or other. (I forgot which title it was she won last.) This girl was no ditsy beauty queen. In fact, she's in law school up north right now. And, she's artistically talented. I don't think you can beat this. It's too bad they couldn't have stayed together. I really liked her.

Also, met my cousin's gfriend of 4 months. They're already living together in NY. God damn. Now, why is it that I can't seem to get a guy I like who'd want me to be a live-in gfriend? This couple is 23 and 25 and they're already traveling together.

So, the 5 of us headed out for a late dinner with me feeling like the 5th wheeler. They asked me if I was seeing anyone at the moment so I told them about Jorge. And for some reason they think it strange that Jorge wasn't out spending the night with me nor was he going to spend Saturday night with me. Instead, he had made plans to go out with his friends and said he'd see me today, Sunday. My brother thinks he's a loser, but then again, my brother's against any guy I date who isn't Asian. So, they wanted me to go hang with them at some frat party consisting of mostly 19-21 yr olds. I opted to head home early for the evening, instead....feeling a bit sad Jorge hadn't invited me to join him this weekend. I wonder why.

My friend, CC-girl thinks he's broke since I had mentioned he hasn't worked since January. It's quite possible since he's been using his credit card the last couple of times we went out. But, wouldn't you think he'd still want me to hang with him? Maybe he still wants to take his time as we did see each other last Friday, Sunday, Tuesday, and Thursday. Ok, I need to stop. I'm freaking myself out. It's not like I didn't have plans myself for the weekend.

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Saturday: Worked a couple of hours. A friend I haven't seen for a bit came to meet me at work, checked out my portfolio, and then we headed on down to Sushisaurus in Belmont Shore to meet up with a couple of mutual friends. It was for our friend's birthday. Afterwards, we headed on over to Starbucks where we had a huge conversation about "toes" after the birthday boy got "Thumbtanic" as a birthday present.

Toe Porn

Toe Jam

Hairy Toe

Toe Fungus

Hunchback Toe

Gonzo Toe

Toe Cast Party

The Toe Oscars

Best Dressed Toe

Worst Dressed Toe

Sexiest Toe.......

We just went on and on. From there our conversation went downhill and someone started talking about how some guy used his "nuts" as "boobs" for some show.

I had to ask if they were hairy, sleek and shiny, wrinkly, or saggy.

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Sunday: That's right now. I'm at work. I'll be leaving in an hour. Then, I'll be seeing Jorge. I think I have a shoulder cramp.

Oh....Jorge has been telling me about this wedding he's going to be in this coming weekend. In fact, he's mentioned it to me 3 times already, yet I keep wondering if he's going to ask me to be his date. Would it be too early in the relationship for him to invite me as his date? Why the heck am I fretting over this? I think I would be pretty disappointed if he doesn't. And why is it that after our completely positive conversation about relationships am I feeling like I still can't quite trust him? Crap. Crap. Crap. Crap. I wish I had no past baggage to hunt me. If you are reading this, please, please, please give me your opinion on this matter.