After taking an online exam, I am self diagnosing myself as having clinical blues.

For awhile now, I've had a hard time getting out of bed. When I don't really have anything scheduled, I find myself wanting to sleep. I have no energy. I have no desire to do anything in particular other than to be with my oso.

I have had no desire to shop for items to adore my body with. I have no desire to hang out with girlfriends I used to hangout with. I'd rather just do things on my own or do it with oso.

I come home from work knowing I should do laundry because I'm down to handwashing undies last minute. I have no more clean towels.

Either I'm really depressed or I'm just a super lazy being. I've been thinking about seeking help...talking to a professional and getting an official exam to see if I actually have clinical depression.

This morning, as I drove to work, I wanted to cry. I hate work, but I have to go to work so I can continue supporting myself. I wonder if I'm in the correct industry. I'm good at what I do, but I'm not excited by it anymore. It depresses me that I'm not sure what to do next. I feel like I'm stuck in a rut. Could it be that I'm just not at the right place for what I do? Would I be happier somewhere else doing the same thing? Or do I really need to switch careers now? I'm just a mess. Scared.